Love is a hard thing~

Trying hardly to figure out what YOU've changed.
I felt that our relationship is in between a FAR distance.
You never scold me in front of anyone before.
But not TODAY..
That really hurts me tho :(
And i think you should know that?
Everyday we've been chatting on the phone.
Everyday you're always hurting me..
You never notice that the way you talk to me..
It's like im a normal friend to you..
You apologize..
What for?
You will still be doing the same old things..
You're GODDAMN attitude..
Maybe one day, Im just gonna keep quite..
And wont say a word to you anymore..
Im fed up with your attitude..
You changed..
I dont know why..
AND
You said you promise..
But you always FAIL!
Forget about it..
You always say that you will change..
Yet you DISAPPOINTED me again and again!

Yesterday..
Was the comment day..
You were on the phone with me..
And saying that how much you love me..
After a few minutes..
My relatives came..
I gotta get out of the room and be in the living room.
You're always down when you're chatting with me.
You got nothing to say.
But when i return to the comments..
It was all your comments..
Im shock..
Asking myself why were you in a mood with them but not me?
I dont understand.
When i joined..
You asked me..
Why are you not chatting with your relatives.
You never welcomed me.
And i left.
I never wants to post another comment anymore.
I was so upset.
Maybe we're gonna seperate one day.
But of coz i hope that will never happen..
But when we grow older..
Maybe we're different.

But i'll always love you.

Yin

YOU!

I duwan to love you anymore..

I felt so hurt when u scolded me..

You will never understand,

how much i have loved you..

You hurt me so badly...

I just wan to

HATE YOU!

Temporary staying in 4sc1?

I dont feel proud of myself being in the temp class in 4sc1
Those are for the smart people to studies.
And im not one of those smart human.
I got really nervous when i ebter the class.
It's just like im going to hell.
Yupp that feeling is really that bad.
Although is just temporary for 1 or 2 weeks.
But I really cant do it.
I cant sit and learn the lesson without talking and eating!
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This is just so hard for me.
Lucky for my babes.
They got humans to acc them. If not they'll be just like me.
I dont hope that's happening to them too :)
Although diff packages seperates us..
But we are still in a big family relationship.
Different class it doesnt matter.
We still can remain the same craziness!
I love my friends.
Cause they really care bout me and understands my feeling!
I appreciate having such GOOD friends!
Of cause when we're having lessons on diff class.
It's always a bit bored.
Without their voice
Im really lost.
Is just like I first stepped into form4sc1 =(
No lies.
That feelings that i get is just horror!
For my whole life
I will never forget how was the feeling i had today.
Sitting and learning in 4sc1 for an hour is just like a day has pass.
I hope that they'll finish the time table as soon as possible.
As long as im not staying in that class.
I feel SAFE!

I just cant do it!

I dont know why..
I hate that person as if that person kills my family!
I damn hate that person since that person gave me a super bad impression!
I just cant forget and forgive what that person makes me feel!
It's just like someone killed your whole family!
Do you know how that feeling is??!!
Bet u dont want to feel anything that makes u sad right?
Ahhrhhhggghhhh!!
I just damn hate that person!!!!!
Damnnnnn UUU!!!
Another year to hate!!


Yin

Shits!

Although is a very new year..
But the very same old things still happening!
How am i gonna stop that?
It's very dulan to see something unpleasent to happen!
That mother feeling is so damn ><
Imagine u cant complaine to anyone..
You will just keep it to yourself!
How the damn u feel man!!!
Im so f up!