It's meaningless.

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You see life is meaningless!
Totally meaningless. This doesn't mean that I hate my life or I love it to the max.
When you have a big family.
It's either good things or bad things happen.
So you will have to deal with both anyway.
My family is huge I can proudly say.
Nearly this 2 years,
I've been facing pains. Attending funerals.
My family's funeral.
Going through the same pain.
Seeing the same human, with the same old feelings.
Heart breaking moments.
Of course I love family gathering a lot! But not in Nilai Memorial?
I hate that place to the MAX!
I mostly see those people at my hometown!
Not in this kind of events?
Growing old together.
They work so hard to survive and yet they leave this world just like that.
Why? Why is this world so cruel? I don't understand.
You brought all your children into this world.
They struggle to live, working hard to have a better life.
You want them seeing you leaving them?
They wouldn't be able to accept the fact.
It's so painful to them.
Wondering how to move on without you being there always
Life shouldn't be like this.
No matter how successful you are, you'll leave this world one day.
Last month my uncle passed away.
This month my granduncle passed away.
They say the family is too big.
The age gap is too close.
Don't you know that the younger ones is suffering?
I can't deal with the pain.
Life changes, people leaves.!
This is not what I always wanted from my life.
I always want happiness.
It's always around this 2 months. March and April!
Urghhhhhh. This is not good.
Suffering. Struggling. Sadness.
How do I get use to these feelings ?
This has just got to stop.

Yin