Is our ship sinking?

I asked for forgiveness.
I know how much you hate me,
How much you don't like to see me now.
Saying I'm sorry I know it's not working.
Maybe sorry means nothing to you.
What else can I say besides that?
It was just a misunderstanding.
I've tried my best to explain.
But it's still not working out.
So, my very last chance to explain?
It's not okay. IT'S NOT OKAY TO SEE YOU CRYING!
I made this all up & I'm trying to make it clear.
Feeling heart broken is a 100% yes to you?
Sorry for making you cry.
This is not what I want.
I don't mean to hurt you? It was just a joke?
I didn't knew he would made that call to you,
When I was up to STOP him, it's too late already?
I know you'll say I'm a liar.
If I'm telling lies, who else can cover for me?
Only myself. But there's so many people there.
Especially the one who made the call ?
It's not like I wanted to lie just to get this friendship back?
It's not worth at all.
See you scolding me on public makes me feel the same like you did.
EXPLAIN? Maybe you'll just simply say it's okay.
Try thinking how awkward silent will it be when we met.
There's still 6 months to go.
My circle of friend is limited.
I don't need to lose friend!
And especially girl's friend?
I did treat you as my friend but you didn't trust it.
Past is past? I don't have to put last year's heart broken story in my heart.
I've totally forget bout it.
I've changed, for myself to have a better life, to have more friends.
This is the worst day of the first 5 months?
I want it to be the best memorable year for me and you guys.
But I think I've spoilt yours.
I have mention so many times that I don't need argument this year to myself.
Over & over again.
Look what I've done.
I made this all up.
I'm here to apologize? Again?
Hope you forgive me?


Yin