Back to blogging?

My blog was dead since 2009 D: and I do not know why I have this sudden urge to blog or perhaps I should say to rewrite a diary again? By thinking of blogging sometimes do brings me back a lot of pains but still happiness are my everything. :) I am now back to blogging, I really do miss writing my daily diary as I used to do when I was still in high school and now that everyone is busy with college and stuff so I guess nobody will ever notice this ever again. :D Missing the high school life we use to have! So much fun memories. Was just talking about with my boyfriend and woon on how they destroy everything! Back in 2011, the ex-form5's had seriously gone to an extreme level of craziness. But of course I'm still loving the 5 of my babes. Well, new schooling life and not to forget new friends that I've made this year, no big deal but I just want to note down everything so that back then I could just read back what I've blog about. Re-reading old post just made me felt so terrible! I was so horrible and such a bitch back then, I've hurt the closet people to me and I've made the worse image of myself still young and dumb but no time to look back. I still do apologize on what I've done to others and really trying so hard to move on from the past. I was dumb back in the days so there's no point telling myself how dumb could it be again! So I'm 18 now, dealing with different assholes and the bright side is I'm still with my love for 4 years. It has been amazing since we got into different college. Definitely not what I've pictured in my head thinking that he would choose or met someone better in life. I'm still here for him and he's still always being here for me. I totally felt the love he gave me since we did not went to same college. I was more secured and which I really shouldn't be feeling like this. And not to forget my life-time relationship with my BABI 123. Only if they know my blog still do exist! I miss the old days so much but everyday passes and there is no turning back or trying to stop the time from moving. What can I still ask for? I have the most important people in my life, my super awesome friends and the most caring boyfriend ever. I thank God for that, but there's something I got hurt so much but in a good way, Puffy left us on the 9th of May 2012 he's the most painful incident that had happen to me and my family every night I still look at pictures of him. Framing up every picture I've took with him, he's been the best gift ever I've choose for myself. Not sure if this post is going to be long but I surely do enjoy typing each and every word :D I've finally got over my AS exam; I am still not sure whether I should change a different course to study? Of course my supportive parents really want me to finish it but no joke I really work extra hard for my studies. Everyday I'll have breakfast with Chai & nothing has change, it started since the beginning of the year. She's good, but most important of all she's really understanding. :) My classmates are awesome but sometimes people just wanted to an asshole instead of a fairy LOL. It was all good except for one thing, my econs lecturer? I do not know whether I am the one who's not paying attention or she just simply came in and blah shits then ciaoz. I was always sad whenever I see her. :/ I know I am not suppose to be depend on my lecturers because they are just here to do their job, you are the one who needs to put some shitty effort on it. Everything in life is great, no dramas, no heartbreaks! So I guess I will be back to blogging each and everyday seems like i really do miss it a lot! :P 5 Dec 2012