Holidays!

Yes, I am finally having and starting to enjoy my holidays! I have missed out on blogging for the past 2 days as I have been freaking busy with house cores! This is all because my daddy is coming back and the whole house must be squeky clean :/

12.12.12 was amazing! Spent the night with  my loves as usual at the new "HOT'' place idarts hex :D
Hate to admit that it was really really addictive! This time I am not the only girl who went! Finally get to meet up with Lynn as she has been gone for God knows where.

It was the worse day for someone I guess, and it was happy hour and I didn't know that we will end up drinking this much & I did felt tipsy then I couldn't walk straight anymore.
I was drunk but I clearly knows what I am doing for the whole night. I don't know if I really did called someone and end up being an asshole to him, I really do feel bad and whatever I have heard him saying to me today I felt that it's kinda "made up". Everyone knows I am in a relationship and I will only love the one that is with me right now, I never flirt because it's always disrespectful or you can just say that I am cheating on my lovely boyfriend. I will never do that to him because I know that there's not gonna be someone like him, who doesn't smoke, doesn't drink and doesn't flirt ; all of these had kept me loving him so much each and everyday! I will not give up this relationship unless he doesn't have feelings for me anymore.
I am the kind of person that can chat with you but I will not fall or flirt with you because I know that I shouldn't and I cannot do that to someone who truly loves me.
Because everything he told me this morning is kinda exaggerating and I kinda want to back off a little bit.

Does people always take advantage of you?
Why do you still go after someone that has already find their true partner? ( I am not saying that I do not want any market value but it's good to have some? ) LOL I am just curious why do people still go after someone that is already in a relationship.

Yesterday night was tragic because getting hurt like this is really the pain that you have to suck it all in and not having to break down in front of everyone and it's even worse when you are a guy.
Being a nice guy will only be the one that is getting hurt, of course you'll still be loved by your friends.
Alcohol will be your best buddy for the time being. I have always wondered why people drink so much as they don't even care whether their kidney is gonna spoil or whatever shit, after I have been through yesterday I felt it myself that consuming alcohol will get you into a state that you forget who you are and just starting to live in your own world & it's also a state where you get "high''.

I am not saying alcoholics are going to die faster it's just that now I know what's the feeling of really being drunk. I don't like being control and my boyfriend really did not tend to stop me and I was quite surprise.

There is nothing special to blog about today, just doing something like a "daily diary". I do not know what to say when someone really finds out I am back to blogging and I guess you really are a true STALKER? :)

Guess I will be signing off here, xoxo.
13.12.12